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My Bizarre Life.

    You know, since little I was gifted to become ugly and not lucky. But I also not kind with other people. So Life fucked me from face to my ass. And I don't understand why my parents telling me to be grateful. But even Life is not be nice on me, I'm still alive since this day. I just do not understand why. Since I was on elementary school, I always became the loser, being bullied because I'm fat and having 'asian' eye. If I can choose, and know about world before I was born. I don't want to born in here.

    I hope I can customize my looks before I born. But it cannot be happened. Because life is a hardcore game mode, when you die, It's over. There is no check point. There is no second chance or maybe ten chance. Yeah, that's sucks honestly. My luck also not good. I never won a prize in my life. never get girl that I wanted to fuck and love with. Since this day my wealth is not on good condition. I wish I got first time luck  in my life.

    I was born to be weak, never win a fight in school or real life. Crying when my i lost my love to the girl that rejected me or when break up with girl that I waste because I feel bored with relationship. Then I just hoping someday i got a super power to become strong, helping me with dating issue, or helping me to get rich fast. Hmm, I thought I just dreaming since I born. But it's not dream, only cruel reality that fucked me hard from inside to outside. Shit.

    But when I wish I can end this with shortcut (suicide). I just feeling afraid. Afraid to leave my family. And afraid that other people know me will spit on my grave, and thought that, "he's dead. he's really a totally looser.". But don't know how to do some revenge. My parents always said to be grateful. I'm stress,  So in the end, I think more before really ending my stupid life. I cannot do a revenge kill like those psychopath, cause I was to weak. Hope i just can died when i sleep. I hope that not be that hurt, hihi. 

    I living by hating people that do something bad to me. And til i dead i would not forgive them. Because they also not saying sorry or do that with some regretly. Right now i still hate them, i don't know why i can forgive them or forget them. It's suck. You know, like when u just standing or working, suddenly that memories came and fucked up my head. So i just scream suddenly. And other people around me be like "wtf happen?" . 

    So maybe that's all about how i living my own life. maybe if i not get bored by write shit again. i will continuie this blog. bye

First Post

 Haloow :)

    This is my first time using blogspot. Why I'm still writing on blogspot like this ?? Not on micro blog like Twitter? Somehow I wonder too, maybe because i just want to practice my typing skill and English vocabulary by writing some word on blog.

    I don't know nothing about blogspot. But I do some research when i saw other people blog. they got a nice touch on their blog. Then me just don't know about how to do that, so I just write. Then don't care about anything about design on my blog. 

    Then about the writing. i don't know nothing about writing. i forgot about paragraph, and it's explanation. i just write it, that's all. So I hope u all when read this blog can forgive me hihi. 

    So the topic on this blog simply just want to share about what I feel. This blog will be my place to share all I thought about this life. And with English language I hope this can reach readers from other worlds. And i hope too you can understand what I mean. Thank you.